Austin is ten years older than me, and one of the most important people in my life. Sometimes, I forget just how lucky I am to have him.
Continue reading “Big Brother”Father/Daughter Trip
After I found out my dad was an alcoholic, we went on one of our father/daughter trips. We went to Rhode Island, close to the beach and close to Mystic, CT where we planned to spend a whole day. I was excited and nervous. It was our first trip together after he almost died from drinking the rubbing alcohol.
Continue reading “Father/Daughter Trip”D.U.I.
I had a friend whose house phone number was one digit off from my house phone. We were close friends and grew up in the same neighborhood; we had stayed in touch when I moved away. Well, one night I get a call from her, and she seem frantic. “Hey, so the cops called asking for your mom. I told them they had the wrong number and gave them yours.” As she says this the call waiting beeps come through, I quickly say thanks they are calling now and hang up and switch over.
Continue reading “D.U.I.”Feeling Like You’re Not Enough
Have you ever felt like you weren’t “good enough”? I know for me it has been something I have struggled with for a long time. I think I was told so many times that I wasn’t good enough that I just eventually believed it. And when you start to believe that, you start to make poor decisions, or just give up.
Continue reading “Feeling Like You’re Not Enough”Guidelines To Letting Go
My therapist gave me an amazing basic guideline of letting go. I’ve read it so many times and it’s amazing how every single line hits home, how I’ve never learned to let go. It absolutely will take time to heal and let go, but I wanted to share how each one really relates. This piece is a poem from an unknown source
Continue reading “Guidelines To Letting Go”Alateen
My mom had joined a support group called Al-anon. It’s a support group for adults who are dealing with someone they have in their lives who is an alcoholic. She found a great support group for her to help understand 1.) Alcoholism is a disease 2.) There is support and 3.)How to deal with her situation. With her joining this group she learned there was a group like hers but for teens(Alateen). And she wanted me to go. She thought it would help me understand a little bit more of why my dad was the way he was.
Continue reading “Alateen”Middle School Bullies
I had lived in Danbury for ten years (so just until after 5th grade). I was so excited to go to the middle school where all my other friends were going. My parents had a different plan in mind. They wanted a better school for me and they “found” it. I was devastated. I didn’t want to start in a brand-new school where I knew no one!
Continue reading “Middle School Bullies”The Other Side
There’re two sides of my dad 1) The amazing most generous loving man and 2) Drunk and crazy. It’s hard to have to go back and forth with drinking, dry drunk, sober, and back to drinking. It’s a circle of pure hell.
Continue reading “The Other Side”Picture Perfect Family
Picture Perfect
I always felt when I was younger I had the most picture-perfect family. Two very loving parents, and an amazing big brother. We had family vacations and lots of love. Only that wasn’t really the case. There was a lot of hiding and lying. I can understand it, it was to protect me, but sometimes I wish I was more prepared because when shit hit the fan I felt like my whole world had stopped.
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