I had messed up pretty badly. I was drinking, taking pills, stole my Dad’s credit card, and was in a very bad place. In my last post, you’ll read that my Dad gave me quite an ultimatum. Call the cops or outpatient rehab. Obviously I picked rehab, but what my parents didn’t know was that I wanted rehab. I saw myself going further and further down a hole I had no idea how to dig myself out from. I felt like every part of me; my mind, my heart, my body was being swallowed whole into a dark abyss.
Continue reading “Outpatient Program”Crash And Burn
Life is funny and growing up is weird. Figuring out who you are is even harder especially when you are battling depression, anxiety and rage.
Continue reading “Crash And Burn”Laundry List
A.C.O.A = Adult Children Of Alcoholism. I have done some research into being an ACoA and I found something called the “Laundry List”. This list was adopted into the ACoA world service organization’s official literature. For me it made a lot of little things click in place for me, that I may not have ever connected before. I want to share this laundry list with you and after explain how you can change these traits. This acronym below was created by author John Bradshaw in his book ‘The Family’.
Continue reading “Laundry List”The Lions Breath Movement
Hey everyone! Today is a little different! Today I want to share a podcast that I recently was on! They talk about mental health, fitness, weight loss, etc! I am honored to have been apart of their podcast and to be able to share my story with them and many others! Follow them as well, they have a lot of amazing podcasts with some amazing people, and share amazing content on their social media! There is so much to keep learning and doing! So today please listen to the podcast below and follow along with my journey on The Lions Breath Movement Podcast 🙂 If you would like to follow them their Instagram is @thelionsbreathmovement .
Continue reading “The Lions Breath Movement”Book Quotes
I figured today I would share some book quotes I have found along the way that touched me in a way I had to write them down. They touched my heart with either addiction, anxiety, depression, etc. I hope maybe some of these will connect with you all as well.
Continue reading “Book Quotes”Trudging Through
Sometimes it’s hard for me to write because I can’t always put into words what I want to say. Sometimes I think maybe that it’s that I don’t want to face certain things in my life. It’s not easy pulling up all that I’ve shoved down for so long back into memory. I think it’s also hard because I’ve held my Dad on this pedestal forever, and it’s hard to remember some of the shittiness that happened and that he was just a normal person with flaws like the rest of us.
Continue reading “Trudging Through”Signs Of Relapse
“A single episode of drinking isn’t always considered a relapse. It’s often referred to as a slip. It’s possible to slip without relapsing.” – Chris Elkins, MA
Continue reading “Signs Of Relapse”Dad’s Book
Having visited my Dad in Florida while he was recovering and witnessing his sadness (although he really did try his best to hide it) made me want to do something special for him. Something to show him all the things he had here to fight for. I wanted to turn my Dad’s fight switch on because even with everything we had been through I was still Daddy’s little girl, and a girl always needs her father.
Continue reading “Dad’s Book”Holidays
When someone you love leaves this earth, every holiday, every birthday, every Father’s Day, Mother’s Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc. will never be the same again. But it doesn’t mean it won’t get better.
Continue reading “Holidays”Facing It
It’s really hard to bring a lot of my stories back up to the surface. My therapy includes writing out what happened to me, and my family. Some days I can write about a certain moment and be fine…
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