Sometimes it’s hard for me to write because I can’t always put into words what I want to say. Sometimes I think maybe that it’s that I don’t want to face certain things in my life. It’s not easy pulling up all that I’ve shoved down for so long back into memory. I think it’s also hard because I’ve held my Dad on this pedestal forever, and it’s hard to remember some of the shittiness that happened and that he was just a normal person with flaws like the rest of us.
Continue reading “Trudging Through”Continued Night Of Hell
I told you half a story when I wrote about not judging people. If you have not heard the first half, click the link in the previous sentence, because this is the second half of that story. And everything in you is going to want to ignore everything I said in that post, and trust me I understand, because sometimes it makes me waiver too. BUT again addicts do things they would never do sober, and again they don’t ask to be this way no matter how hard it is for us to understand it and see it from a different point of view. Especially when you’re in the thick of it.
Continue reading “Continued Night Of Hell”Soulmates
I want to tell you about one of the MOST important people in my life, and about the boy who stole my heart. And since this week is Valentine’s Day I figured this is the best time to introduce you to him.
Continue reading “Soulmates”How We Treat Others
It’s amazing how people treat other people. Now I know we all judge people, I get it… but why? Do we boil it down to that’s just what our brain is wired to do? Or are we really that judgmental as human beings?
Continue reading “How We Treat Others”Signs Of Relapse
“A single episode of drinking isn’t always considered a relapse. It’s often referred to as a slip. It’s possible to slip without relapsing.” – Chris Elkins, MA
Continue reading “Signs Of Relapse”Bad Boyfriends
I don’t think I’m the only one who has dated a few people who were 100% wrong for you. I know that statistics say that many children of alcoholics tend to go for someone they can “fix”. If we can’t have control over fixing our parents, maybe we can fix the person we are with.
Continue reading “Bad Boyfriends”Dad’s Book
Having visited my Dad in Florida while he was recovering and witnessing his sadness (although he really did try his best to hide it) made me want to do something special for him. Something to show him all the things he had here to fight for. I wanted to turn my Dad’s fight switch on because even with everything we had been through I was still Daddy’s little girl, and a girl always needs her father.
Continue reading “Dad’s Book”Overcoming My First Fear
When my Dad went down to Florida for rehab after finding out he had cancer it was a huge moment. Dad never willingly went to rehab on his own. After he finished rehab, Dad stayed with my grandparents in West Palm Beach for some more downtime before coming home. I think he needed time to think and some time away from “real life”.
Continue reading “Overcoming My First Fear”Holidays
When someone you love leaves this earth, every holiday, every birthday, every Father’s Day, Mother’s Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc. will never be the same again. But it doesn’t mean it won’t get better.
Continue reading “Holidays”Brain Scan
Dad’s cancer came with a major relapse. we all knew it was coming. Dad was scared and thought he was doing to die. I couldn’t really hold this one against him, although I wished it didn’t always have to be this way.
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